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Thursday, April 18, 2013

Hey people out there, its been 3 years since i last used this blog. Because i felt i didn't have a use for this anymore at that time. I went on made a couple of good friends along the way and we had lots of fun. But why am i back here, blogging yet again in this post? Because i can safely say, i can't take the pain anymore. I need 'someone' to talk to. This whole situation is as follows; I made a good friend in year 2 of my Poly Life, initially we were just soccer buddies. As time went by, we played soccer together, we talked about soccer together, we literally felt we could connect with each other. I felt really glad, i felt really happy, i thought i finally found a real friend.  As more time pass, we begin hanging out with each other, went out to the movies together, we grew closer. Within a year, we became Best of Friends. He was my first ever Best Friend i had. Why was he my Best Friend? Because he never gave me up, he never left me alone, everytime when i needed a listening ear, i needed a hand, he's always there for me. The best thing is, he's always caring for me. As someone who hasn't had a true friend before, this feels like heaven. Our characters attracted each other. Initially as we both are 'virgin' to this Best Friends' relationship, we actually got a friend to help, my friend actually helped us to bridge that gap between us which was merely just how to talk to each other regarding problems that arises. We went through that together, end up being able to talk to each other ourselves and didn't need that friend to help anymore. But as more time go by, things start getting a little unstable. We begin to know more about each other's character as we went deeper unknowingly because i believe as you know someone better and longer, you tend to unknowingly know them deeper and whatever they says and words they use become more impactful. The most awesome thing is that, he changed himself just for me. He used to be a person whom don't care that much, just live his own life, and loves his free time. He changed to became caring towards me, and caring about what happens to me. But perhaps what went downhill was that hindsight on my part, Which is not giving him that space he needs. In every relationship/friendship the most important factors are: Communication, Understanding and Trust. Perhaps he tried telling me till he grew tired and didn't know how to tell me anymore. And my fault was that i didn't understand him enough. The trust is there though. What was the reason we were best friends were also, initially other people made fun of us, mock us as lovers. It caused us alot of problems at that point of time, but we went through it together, got an understanding together. We quarreled alot like how best friends do, really bad ones, but we came to an understanding at the end of it. When 2 people get comfortable of each other, they also tend to take each other for granted. That's human's nature. I admit that i did in fact that him for granted at times. But i realised that and stopped doing that as much as i could. Because we were almost talking everyday since we became best of friends, i think he somehow became kind of tired talking everyday. Honestly believe it or not, i had that feeling earlier than him, but i managed to overcome it by trusting him and taking things slower. I know he might not get a chance to read this, but i still wanna say that bro, i wanna let you know that i understand what you have been trying to say already, I just wish that you wouldn't give this up, i just wish that we can work together like how we did when people mock us previously, when we had huge quarrels. 

 For this 3 years of awesome friendship, (1st year normal, and 2 years thereafter Best Friends) you gave me not only my life back, as i used to be really lonely and emotional, you actually shaped my life, you molded me to be a better person. For this i'm eternally grateful to you, i would even give me life to pay you back for it. You gave me happiness. For a boy who has only his computer as his only company everyday after school in secondary days, and being bullied everyday in class, you actually changed his life. The thankfulness and happiness is something which i cannot explain in words. Thus why you're my best friend. I know on my part, i wasn't that awesome to you, i wasn't here when you had relationship problems, i couldn't be there when you POP-ed, all these i deeply regret. I wished i could turn back time and be there for you. I know we both are 2 guys who think alot. That is inevitable. You used to advise me, to teach me that, whatever if i was thinking that is troubling me, just let you know by telling it to you. So we can try to solve them together. I heeded your advise, i begin telling you. You responded calmly by giving my advises, suggestions and ultimately solving the issues together. I was glad i said because we eventually solved them. Now in fact, its the other way around. You have issues that are troubling you, its my turn bro to help you. Would you tell me about them? I'm ready to actually solve these with you if you're ready too. You can always rely on me, use me as a pillar. Because that's what Best Friends are for. I know in the past my habit was that i always pressure you with my texts, and that you had to reply, or else i would be angry and all. But you told me about this and i realised it myself. I stopped doing that because i would rather sacrifise the texts than losing you. I know you feel that I don't really appreciate things you do for me because of what i say. But i want to let you know again that, i really do appreciate the things you do for me. Whatever you did for me, its all etched in my heart. Like the recent one, you went Hong Kong and bought me a shirt, although its a little big, and normally you know me, i wont wear loose clothings, but its from you, and its the thought that counts. I really really love it very much. On my 21st Birthday, you made me a card, a card that i never received before in my life. I said that casually to you while we were working 6 months ago (from my birth date), and you remembered. How touched i was you should have known. I wanna say that i know you really well, although i seldom say it to you. 

 I shall say it now.
1. You value your free time the most.
2. You value friendships
3. Your family matters number 1 to you.
4. You're strong on the outside, but a totally different person inside when someone knows you well.
5. You love having those little funs (Eg, playing dota2, PES, and other stuffs that me and you know of.)
6. Your fav colours are Blue, Yellow and Purple.

 There are much more that i know of you, I just think this isn't an appropriate place to put it. 

 Bro, I want to let you know that, The term 'Best Friends' means best friends. You said lets just be good friends. But honestly bro, being just good friends will not solve that problem we have. What i'm trying to say is, why not we tackle the problem together as what we normally did? Using each other as a motivation to push forward. I know these are times when you grow really tired, but hang on bro. Don't give up just yet because i haven't gave it up. Just hold on to it even with your one finger. There was a period whereby i used to feel this way too bro. Just that i didn't tell it to you. But i did what i told you. I told you what was affecting me, and if you remembered i said before, i needed a break. But i never once no matter how tired i am said about giving this up. Because i felt there isn't a need to and it isn't worth giving it up. What happened before happened bro, shall we just move on and care only about things that are happening now one at a time? I'm willing to be here for you whatever may come, think or thin, you just need not say you wanna give up. Friendships is just like a 100m running track. Initially its like the figure below, We start off equal.

 This figure shows the care, concern and whichever we do for each other.

 (A) 0m ---------------------------------- 50m ---------------------------------- 100m
(B) 0m ---------------------------------- 50m ---------------------------------- 100m

 Taking A to be you and B to be me. In our friendship its normally this;

 0m ------------------------(A) 40m--------------------------------------- 100m
0m ---------------------------------------(B) 60m------------------------ 100m

 I'm not saying that you do less, i'm saying its because of your character. And i don't blame you for that. But when a problem arises. Let's say you have an issue, or you're troubled. The figure belows shows you what i mean.

 0m ------------------------(A) 40m-------------------------------------- 100m
0m ---------------------------------------------------(B) 80m----------- 100m

 What i meant here is that, when you're troubled, my care and concern is increased (not drawn to scale), it means i'm ready to catch you in case you fall, or i'm ready to listen to your troubles. I know this is vice versa because i've been there when its you at 80m.

 But what i trying to really persuade you and tell you is that, i never once gave up, can you don't give this up too? Let's work things together, and not stress about unnecessary things alright? I ask you when you honestly, When you stress about these things, you think about it, why are you stressing? Are things that bad bro? Are things really that bad that is unsolvable that we need to sacrifise this friendship? Are we not able to work things out? Bro i believe you can bro. These are some questions i'm leaving you to ponder over.

~ Once you found your true friend, you will never let them go because there are just too hard to let go of. ~


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